I’ve read books about people inside before – but it’s always somebody doing a life sentence or an educated person being locked up for one stint. I’ve never seen a book about the most common type of prisoner: the ones caught up in that constant in and out cycle, the revolving door that makes prison feel more like coming home than it does waiting to come out. Over my last year inside, I decided to put a book together and now the book is finally here. It’s a long and costly process costing thousands of dollars that I don’t have, but with the help of friends and some ‘GoFundMe’ online fundraising, things are finally taking shape. I met with a local publisher who prints everything in house and paid the deposit to get things moving.
The book is about learning how to use your time, not do your time. It is a biography of my journey in and out of prison, how I found true freedom inside and now, in the music festival community, trading my artwork and my story. It’s touching on the basis of love, pain, addiction, suicide, spiritual growth, developing the body and mind.
We often forget that most people don’t get a chance to be alone, stripped of their families, job titles and friends. Stripped of what brand of clothes they wear and what car they drive. It’s actually such a privilege to be removed from these things and build on our true selves without these attachments. What you build when all these things are stripped from you can be taken with you no matter where you are in this world. Not possessions, not status but true growth from within if you make the choice to use it right.
After talking to the team at Earth Frequency, a big music festival which is held in Woodford each year, they organised with me to do the book release at the festival. I never imagined all those years ago when I’d done my first lag, that this would be my life. Even after my last stint, I would’ve never have thought I would find a way to exist out of prison long enough to be able to achieve any of this. But with purpose and community, it is possible.
There is something about sharing with others. There is something about connection. There is the training and development of yourself. It is to enjoy your time, even doing nothing. And one main aspect is to find a way to do the things that you love doing.